Day 37

When my heart was given away 3 years ago, I thought I had given it to mr. right. And the thing about giving your heart away is that once it's given away, you can't take it back. So when he decided to lock it away and forget about me, it's the same as taking my heart and stabbing it a million times or pouring salt on it till it shriveled and shrunk. I realize that I no longer have a heart to give away anymore.

I simply cannot comprehend what has happened in the last month or so that has changed my life forever. I keep having dreams of us getting back together but in reality, I know that he has made up his mind and will never go back on the decision. How did that happen?

Day 34

Shreds of you hidden in so many places.

Day 30

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Day 26

Today I found out that he had passed his CFA. I remembered his first CFA and me being there for him through his darkest moments. I remembered contemplating flying over to Hong Kong at the spur of the moment just to provide him the moral support for this second CFA although I was going over in another week's time.

For the first second, I was VERY happy for him until the next second when utter deep sadness struck me and reminded me that this has nothing to do with me anymore. I'm not the one he wants to celebrate this with anymore and I'll not be the person to support him through his third CFA.

Day 24

don't know what to do with my life anymore

Day 23

" I'm sorry", "You'll find someone better than me"

Day 22

I cried till my eyes were swollen again. Sigh.