The last 2 months...

...has been a roller-coaster of emotions.  I was very happy.  Then I was very sad.  I was hopeful.  Then I was crushed.  I was excited.  Then I was lonely.  I wanted to tell everyone the good news.  Then I wanted to hide in bed from the world.  I went from feeling loved to feeling like I'm not worth being loved.  I must have done something wrong.  I must have said something wrong.  Maybe I changed and was no longer the same bubbly person people usually like in the beginning.  Maybe I take on their personalities so I appear to be clingy.  Maybe they realize that I'm not that interesting.

Pangs of emptiness hurt like hell.

Maybe, it's just not meant to be.

Damn it.  It really sucks to be unwanted and it really sucks to be reminded of that constantly.

Damn it.  It really sucks that this sucky situation is having such a huge impact on me.

Damn it.

I deserve someone who deserves my love.  I will not settle.  I will not let others define who I am.

In the meantime, I wish the pain would subside a little quicker...