Day 21

No internet connectivity in Singapore, thus the short hiatus.

Saw many things that reminded me of him. It's been really sad to be reminded of all the future plans and dreams we made together that will never happen now...it's very hard when you poured your heart and soul into thinking that you'll grow old with this one person, have a family together and be there for each other for a long long time.

Clearly, I don't know how to let go.

Day 18

God, please make everything okay again. Please.

Day 17

I cry and cry each day till I get too tired to cry then I sleep but I wonder how does one get over it...everybody says time will heal time will make it feel better...but will it? I can appear to be okay and smile and be cheerful but that's just pretending that everything's okay...

I love him, I still do. I still want to be with him, be by his side, make him happy and take care of him. Call me stupid, but that's the sad truth.

Day 16

Seriously, wake up.

Day 15

someone please wake me up from this nightmare...

Day 14

Perhaps there is some truth in the old movies when mothers tell their daughters to find a man who loves them more than they love him back...

I am sorry that although you tell me to stop loving you, I cannot.

Day 13

REMINDER TO SELF: he dumped you...so stop having dreams about getting back together...