forgive me?

I'd like to know at what point that we all grew up and decisions became harder to make, especially the ones that does not make people happy either way.  What comes first? Family? Friends? Work? Impact? World peace?

A, if you're reading this, I'm really really sorry.  It's not confirmed yet that I'm missing your wedding for sure but the chances are there.  I honestly thought that everything would work out and that I can enjoy celebrating your happiest day and seeing you as a beautiful blushing bride.  But between emails that tell me that things are falling apart at work, and train schedules that tell me that I could potentially be only spending an hour or two at your wedding, and the fact that I would absolutely know no one at the wedding, and school interviews that would require me to take more time off work later this month, I am really struggling with what the right decision is.  

I wish I had a better reason, one that would not upset you or make you think of me lesser as a friend.  And no, I had not planned this or let you know this late on purpose and in fact, it only hit me 1-2 days ago.

Sorry =(