playing with fire

i think that there are too many shades of grey and blurred lines, and i'm crossing all of them right now.

no...

...I do not have a boyfriend and I'm still single.  


love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment of various definitions and scale, but no, I'm not referring to the unrequited or commitment-based attachment type.  that is why I say that our paths cross but diverges greatly because there is no room for commitments and permanence.  but I do have to say that I was trying to avoid even having emotions of temporary attachment because at moments like this when I know he's not mine and yet I'm jealous that he might be seeing other girls and not responding to my emails/sms, it's simply not healthy.

"EAT"

how do I even begin to tell this story?

boy meets girl.  boy tries to meet girl again.  girl meets boy. girl thought she’ll never see boy again.  girl meets boy again.  we all wonder how the story ends though we are pretty damn sure that the ending ain’t gonna be pretty.  both boy and girl know that there isn’t an ending written for them together.  their paths crossed now but are heading in completely opposite directions.  and although it hurts to say goodbye each time, how can boy and girl give up on the idea of love?

call it naivety, call it stupidity.  but perhaps girl should be glad that she is still capable of loving.  that she still has space in her heart for someone.  that she can open her heart to the sweetness and the pain of love.