how to meet a guy?

People always say that there is a time when you simply move on to date other people after ending a relationship...I was thinking about it but it's definitely easier said than done, right?  There are so many complications to that, for example: 

1. Getting over being hung up about the past relationship
2. Thinking about meeting/dating other people
3. Actually meeting/finding people who are interested in going on a date with you
4. Doing the American dating thing (when you've never quite done it before)  

And with my job, you just don't have time to meet people, what more to say date people.  Plus, it's just 100x harder when you're not quite physically attractive.

Don't you guys think so?

why did you have to say that?

I don't know what it really means and I am pissed that he had to go and say something stupid like that.  Even if he means absolutely nothing, you know that us girls will start thinking and analyzing every single word, guessing the "deeper" meaning and going insane in the process. 

I need a hug =(

 

...and you wonder why I still have not quite moved on...

my dress leh?

10:40pmKaron

ooh can i just keep it

don't know why i don't feeel like sending it haha

10:41pmShin

dim gai dont feel like sending it ga

10:44pmKaron

ng g wor

one dress jei

one last request la ho ng ho

Day ???

I have indeed lost count of the days but still have not lost the traces and scents of the past at all. Still no dress.  Just f-ing give my dress back, seriously.


On a different note, given that it's a new year and that Chinese New Year is coming, things are looking a little better from last year.  It's really interesting how since the year started, I have found new friendships in the most unconventional ways.  A perfect stranger on facebook read and related to the stories on this blog.  Another perfect stranger on facebook asked me why I still had pictures of him on my profile album.  


Chopped my hair short; Did a lot of new things: zorbing, rock climbing (ended up being the laugh of the entire place), wakeboarding (ok, not so new to me); Had a lot of good/new food: kajang satay, filipino food (adobo, sisig, etc.); Got really sick on and off for 4 weeks now; and now I'm home for Chinese New Year so everything's good =).

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
 

Day 159

May I look back at 2009 one day and sincerely believe/know that it is all for the better.

p.s.: still no dress.


 

Day 135

...and still no dress

Day 113

I hate that he still affects me so deeply and that the mere thought of him can make me cry.  I hate dreaming of us getting back together and the false scenarios that play in my head.  I hate that I feel so unloved and unwanted and unworthy all because of him. 

Go away damn hormones!